School and new stresses

When Travis and I got married I bought a new journal and decided I would have a journal where I wrote nothing but happy things in it. It would be for our children later. It would talk about how much we love each other and how hard we have tried and failed to get pregnant and how much more we will love our children because of that. Well, that journal is slowly becoming my "wo is me" journal.

This has definitely been a hectic year already, but this semester is going to be a killer! I'm taking 5 classes. I'm taking Biological Sciences, Essentials to Nutrition, College Chemistry, Living Prophets, and the second half of Book of Mormon. On T/Th I have class 9:30-11, 1-2, and 3-4. On M/W I have class from 9-10, 11-12, 1-2. That isn't the problem though.

I have OCD. It is a mild case, but it is there. I have general anxiety. I am a perfectionist. When my chemistry teacher said that the average for the class was a C+ and the highest score has been a B- I was on the freak out level. I dropped out of HS because I missed the deadline for an assignment because of ballet rehearsal and my grade slipped to a 99. Yes, 99!

School, money, health and everything in-between are going to make me go insane, but I will survive. My faith has kept me alive and smiling so far, but how much can I take?

My parents are coming to visit us this month. I am looking forward to that. Sometimes I just want to see them and I can't. Its still hard. I love my parents so much.